Everyone who is a parent has had that moment. And I’m not talking that moment where you learn to balance a baby on your knee while you use a public restroom. Although, that is an important moment too.
No, the moment I am talking about is that moment you realize your life has changed. It’s that moment you realize life is never going to go back to what you know of as “normal.” For some parents, it happens the moment they hand you your newborn. For others, it’s the first time you go out grocery shopping, alone, with the baby. For others, not me of course, it’s the first time her husband goes away for the weekend for a couple lumberjack competitions without her. But again, not me of course.
Okay. It’s me. As Matt was leaving this morning I suddenly realized that I may never get to go on this particular weekend again. Maybe when our kids are older and can stay at a grandparent’s house. That probably won’t be next year or for a number of years.
I had a hit you upside the head moment this morning of I can no longer just do what I want. Up until now, Abby hasn’t really slowed me down much. She just goes everywhere with us, no problem. Until this weekend. With Abby and I not going, Matt can take 3 people with him and split the travel costs. If we went, it would have been much more expensive.
I know that it is okay. We will develop a new normal. We will with each child that we have as normal will always be changing. One day, I will be okay with this. It isn’t going to be today. Probably not tomorrow. But it will happen. It’s suppose to happen. Life is suppose to change as you grow older and start a family. Every single parent has been through this at some point. They all survived through it. I will too.
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