Do you have any idea how hard that is? After 6 weeks of no issues, Abby had another one of her prolapses. And I’m angry. Angry, upset, frustrated, sad, and disheartened. Full of questions. Why is this happening again when we worked so hard to get her healed? Why is their no treatment for this issue that will just heal her once and for all? Why is God allowing this to happen again? Why are we still being hit from all sides? Why can’t we just catch a break? Why can’t my little girl just be whole?
Strength will rise when we wait upon the Lord.
How long do I have to wait? Waiting has never been my strong point. With Abby’s issue/condition, there is no real “cure.” It’s a waiting game. It’s all about her diet and waiting for her to grow out of the issue. There are a couple surgeries but they are high risk and often don’t work. Since she will most likely out grow the issue, not worth the risk. Every case is different so every diet and length of time to full healing is different. It could even take up to a year for her to be fully 100% back to normal. Do you know how hard that is as a mom? All I can do to have my daughter healed is keep adjusting her diet. And pray. And wait.
When Abby had her most recent issue I was busy making dinner. The only thing running through my head was “strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord.” It’s a good thing Matt wasn’t home yet. It’s quite possible that I banged the pot I had in my hands down on the counter and screamed out at God, “I’m tired of waiting. I want my baby healed now!!”
“Yet those who wait for the Lord will gain new strength; they will mount up with wings like eagles, they will run and not get tired, they will walk and not become weary.” ~ Isaiah 40:31
I know it. We used to sing a song when I was a little girl that was just Isaiah 40 put to music. But I never really understood it. I still don’t think I fully understand it. All I know is that my timing is not God’s timing. I have to wait on His timing. I know that He will give me the strength I need to get through this as I wait.
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