It happened again. I waited (not so patiently) for 11 days…only to have my not so lovely monthly visitor show up. Aunt Flo is really not welcome around here. But there she was again. Just as predicted, I was a sobbing mess on the kitchen floor. (Why do these things always happen when I’m trying to make dinner?) Which then brings the anger. Every. Single. Time. I get so angry that God gifts people with babies who then neglect or abuse them. I get angry that teens messing around in the back seat that one time get knocked up. I get angry that other people only take a couple of months of trying before they are pregnant. I get angry that we can hit all the “prime days” and still end up not pregnant. I just get so angry.
Sure, I get over it. And then the next month I go through it all over again. The anticipation, the hope, the sadness, the anger, the hurt, the desperation. I remember it well from when we were trying for our first child and it has now been more than a year of trying for a second child.
For me, God’s timing is not mine when it comes to increasing our family size. For you, it might be something else. A move, a career change, a financial situation. Whatever it is, I’m sure you have also had a situation where God’s timing was not your timing. It’s never easy. It’s almost always frustrating. So what are you to do when you are in that type of situation?
I really don’t know.
Sorry. I just don’t. All I know is that even if it isn’t the way I would like it to go, God has a plan. And it’s perfect. His timing is much better than mine. I am horrible at waiting on God’s timing. But I know that it will be what is best in the end. So what do we do when God’s timing isn’t our timing? We cry. We may yell. We pray.We acknowledge, to ourselves and to God, that He is the one in control. We acknowledge that He has the best, most perfect plan in place for us, much better than whatever plan we have for ourselves. Yes, we embrace the pain. We have to to get past it. But then we pray and we thank God that He has a much better plan for us than we do. We thank Him for his perfect timing.
“This God—his way is perfect; the word of the LORD proves true; he is a shield for all those who take refuge in him.” Psalm 18:30 (ESV)
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